What does it say?

When you have less in common with your older and younger brothers than they have with each other?

When the expectation is that will not graduate high school on time and with a normal diploma?

What does it say when your life's dream job is trivial compared to your brother?

When he seems to eclipse you in knowledge, strength, speed, and even height?

...What does it say, when you feel like no one cares?

When you can't accept help even when you know you need it?

When you push everything away, just to beg for it the next day?

What do these questions say? Only what you think they do. Every once in a while, I look at these. I look upon my failures with sorrow, but....but then I look at how far I've come. I graduated on schedule with a real diploma. I've made friends both here and In real life that I would defend and support, as they support me. I have felt the joy that is love...and the agony that is heartbreak. I have felt the sooth of praise and the sting of criticism. 

Through these reflections, I can see how far I've come. I've embraced my Autism as part of who I am. I have had the joy to learn with, and from others. and while there are many things I have done wrong and many thing I still need to do, I can look back and smile at what I've done, where I am, and how far I have come. 

To all those who have helped me, you have my thanks

To all I have wronged, I am sorry.

And finally, to any one who reads this, look at what you have done, and what you could not do. While you have done wrong to others and have been wronged, you should not lament on matters that cannot be changed. Take a look at the struggles of your past; and look what you have grown to be. Look at all the people you have helped and made happy. Whoever you are, no matter of how you look, who you love, or what you do, know that there is a person out in this world of ours that loves you for who you are.